Never been so sick

What a week for me. Staying in bed all day long. It all started probably last week. I gotten the flu bug from my mum. She is quite strong for her age despite her love to eat junk food and overnight dishes. We have told her to stop eating those overnight food but i guess all mums are the same thinks its wasteful. Anyway, she caught the flu virus and was very ill. I helped by buying her food and etc. I caught it as well. I was still able to go to work for at least 2 days. But on the third day, my health gave way. I refused to eat medicine for my flu as I chose the western way by letting the body fight the bacteria. And indeed it did, on the third day, I was almost completely healed of my flu but ended up with vomiting and high fever of 38.6 degree celsius.

I have written a post of my discrimination against young male doctors. I still do and even more affirmative now. I was seriously sick by this time. after vomitting twice and LS twice, I couldnt eat anything. having high fever and feeling faint. I was desperate for a doctor. I would usually go to Dr Lim and Chan Clinic, but as its always filled with people but I decided to try my luck. As usual, it was "bustling" with patients. Anyway, I went to try my luck at the 24hr clinic, hoping it would be the older doctor on duty. He is quite good at his diagnose and always gives me medicine that would heal within the day. But lo and behold!!! Its the young male doctor again. MY oh MY! you can imagine my disappointment. I totally mark this man! Why, you might ask. if you have not read my previous post. I feel his diagnose is always wrong, charges expensively, imagining other illness that you have. I really do not like this doctor. But I have no choice. I cant afford to wait. I needed medicine now. I shall give him another chance to prove me wrong. And true enough he didnt fail to charge me even more expensive, and this time at $79.00! And best, he says I might have urine infection and ask me to pass out some so he could check. After he checked, he says he found some bacteria and indeed it is urine infection. How am I suppose to know if he is right! Sigh never mind. I shall go home and eat the medicine and see how. maybe after so long, he might have improved in his skill. *looking at the medicine suspiciously*

I went home, ate medicine and slept.

Thursday morning, okay so far. but I still feel nausous and my stomache was still painful.. I decided to go to Dr Lim and Chan, as I still do not trust the doctor. Thank God, I timed myself rightly, and was the first patient, my dear sister visited me during her lunch break and sent me there. *touched*. but she couldnt stay as she got to go back for work. I felt strong enough and told her i am fine i can go home myself. But my dad also called to say he would come to meet me during his breaktime and fetch me home, I felt really touched when they fussed to send me back from clinic. I was served by Dr Chan, a male doc, but he is an old man, so i think still quite safe la. I preferred Dr Lim, the female doctor, she is a very strange lady but she is really good and has been the neighbourhood doctor for more than a decade or two, I think. But she has a way of comforting you. I suppose Dr Chan should be her husband as he is as weird as her but possess an aura that comforts you. He diagnoses it as gastric flu. Well, who am I suppose to believe now? But he only charges me $22!!!!! can you imagine!!!!

Thank goodness my dad insisted on coming to the clinic from work to send me back. I fainted at the table while waiting for him buy food back. And when I awoke, I vomited but as i did'nt eat anything since morning, I could'nt vomit anything out.

I came home, ate the new medicine and slept. Halfway through, I was shivering and got worse, I was shivering as though it was winter and covered myself with a jacket and 2 comforter but to no avail. I shivered for about 30mins and broke into high fever again. After eating fever medicine, I slept and finally, it subsided. At one point I was so weak as I haven eaten anything for almost 1and half day. I couldnt even lift my head or hand, my sister had to feed me. She took time off hearing that I was very ill. *once again very touched* I ate only bread and which was soaked in milo. Upon eating the second doctor's prescription, I was able to walk and and eat better. Conclusion..... the young male doctor has failed me yet again!

Fri morning, I vomited again, but still ate the medicine obediently. It was to be taken every 4 hrly and caused drowsiness, so I ate, rest, ate, rest. The whole day was spent like this. But by nightfall, I was feeling much better. I am still feeling nauseous and giddiness every now and then but decided to take plenty of rest hopefully I would be better soon. Sigh, think I might need to give the Halloween event a miss. I have never attended a Halloween party in my life and was truly looking forward to it this sunday. But given my condition, have to think thrice. Hopefully I would be better by tonight.

Living

When did living becomes such a chore?

Breathing becomes a suffocation 

Talking becomes a strenuous effort

Walking becomes a difficulty

Eating becomes sickness

Opening your eyes becomes seeing death.

3D Floor Painting

After watching an episode of the phenomenal painting of 3D on AXN, I was fascinated with it. And you will be when you see this on our streets.

I found some works of Justin Beever, who is an English Artist who is famous for his art on the pavements of England, France, Germany, USA, Australia and Belgium off a blog from http://jezzbean.wordpress.com/

 I personally love this. Its simple and yet you feel you are walking into this staircase. OOOoooo!!!

And here are some other artist's magnificent works.



3D Mural. Be careful not to be deceived by this and walk straight into a flat wall! 

 With this eye catching and creative way of creating awareness, some advertisers decided to use this as a form of advertising campaign. Check out Johnnie Walker's Whiskey promo in Taipei! Click on this website! http://www.manfredstader.de/street%20art%20johnnie%20walker_taipei.htm

Tata!

You lost me

One of the best songs in Christina Aguilera's new album, Bionic.
Nope it doesnt depict my current situation on why I put it up. Just a song I think its nice. :)

I am done, smoking gun

We've lost it all, the love is gone

She has won, now it's no fun

We've lost it all, the love is gone

And we had magic

And this is tragic

You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected

And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our lives been changed

Babe, you lost me

And we tried, oh how we cried

We lost ourselves, the love has died

And though we tried you can't deny

We're left as shells, we lost the fight

And we had magic

And this is tragic

You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected

And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our lives been changed

Babe, you lost me

Now I know you're sorry and we were sweet

But you chose lust when you deceived me

And you'll regret it, but it's too late

How can I ever trust you again?

I feel like our world's been infected

And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our lives been changed

Babe, you lost me



My valley of darkness

Ever felt hard to wake up, and waking up is like a chore and nightmare? Thats how I felt right now. I wish I can live in a dream and forever not wake up. I sometimes wonder would a person who is in coma happy? well, if she or he has everything to live for probably not. But for now, I would like to take his place.

Its seems a torture to even walk out to the world outside.

Though a good friend of mine, after hearing what happen took the trouble to see me during lunch, we joked and laugh but I felt worse than ever. I felt I have not even live my life proper and it seems I am not even there yet and the feeling sucks. I gone home feeling depress that I am back to square one. I was full of hope, previously a few weeks back, having to live my dream and on the way of achieving more,. But now I felt I have achieved nothing. I feel all these while what have I been doing? wasting my time? I guess all of us did worked hard for what we have today, but sometimes the green monster in us awakens to remind us how low we are compared to others. Yupz, you may be saying to stop dwelling in self-pity. But thats how I am feeling now. I have the fact that all have come to naught. I guess thats how my sister felt when she was in hospital. But the only difference is she has at least for once achieved much before she left. For this moment, I really wish she was here with me. Cause she would know the right things to say to me. 

I feel really tired of having to fight in this game called life.  I cant get out and I cant stop it. I just have to walk it through. Getting tired and getting frustrated. 

Am I upset over the failure of the relationship?

I guess I am. Because I did have some good times. But the bad times is much much more than I expect. The insecurity of the future and the frustration of the present is the strength for me to put a stop to this dwindling situation. I guess only 1 word to describe this failure : Timing

So what its next?

When you cant find someone to love or to love you? The only 1 thing to do is to love yourself. :) And to find some people who needs love. When you realise there are still people who needs your caring. You would start to stop focusing on your hurt and be too busy to wallow in self- pity.

I really wanted to go Australia this year end. But I guess that dream is thwarted. Well, I could still go ahead, but its quite scary for me to go on own. Well, guess I have to change my destination. Really need to get out of here for a while.